After Trials

My life is now so meaningless. I need something to help me pass my time.. Like what my friend said in her blog,

We will only regret things that we used to not appreciate before the moment we lose them. (Chiong.E, 2008)

Trials just ended for me so currently having break from today onwards till 4th of May which is almost equivalent to one week. That if I exclude today and Saturday.
I always wished for a long term break and it's happening.. but now? I've already started...complaining! Then I'll be complaining again once I gotta go back to college.

Okay, mine doesn't really fit the meaning of the statement above, but still it does.
Haha, I don't really have anything better to do but to crap.

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Recently, life was really tough. Well, it's due to my last minute revision for sure. I sort of regretted for not having the mood to revise as I was rushing to finish off whatever I learned the next morning.

Maths - Wasn't sure of the answers. I guess I was too used having answers before I actually do the questions.

English - Bad.. bad...Badddddd.. My first essay sucks to the max. I spent too long on comprehension and lastly, my 3rd argument for another essay wasn't relevant.
I hereby declare that I hate English forever and ever!

Accounting - Hmmm, should be all right. I was lucky enough to be able to do it considering I only started the night before. =)

Economics - I thought I'd already given up the night before. It's like, there's so much to study.. The whole of Micro and Macro, from the moment I stepped into Mufy till the end.
I read the 1st quest. My first reaction was... ???
Next quest. Another of ???
3rd, ???
It went on till the 6th. I was only able to answer 1/6 properly. One of them I only drew the diagram, and defined it. That's it. It shows how badly I did. 1st dear also left the hall earlier. Wth?

Computer Science - Programming sucks. That's all I can say. I definitely lost a total of 20marks already.

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Went to Pyramid yesterday with Sze Chi, Janice2 and 3. We were suppose to watch movie. Well I wanted to, but *ahem*, someone doesn't want. Fine fine, she owes me big time. Had lunch together at Kim Gary.

After lunch, Janice2 and I went back to the car park to get my stuffs. We kinda got lost. =P U noe lar, okay maybe not all of u... my sense of direction is damn good. I can never recognize the place/roads/directions no matter how many times I go. It's officially proven. Imagine asking me to go to green hut again. Hahaha.

Well, it was my first time going out with them. Overall, it was kinda nice although it was short.

We passed by the arcade. It somehow reminds me of the times I used to spend time at arcade.

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My parents will be going to Sg today. What am I going to do at home?? Arhhh.. I'm stuck. Alone. Why lar my gang will only finish their paper later? Well, except for Gunawan. I bet he's gonna play Dota the whole night.

I feel like going out.

I feel like buying a book.

I feel like eating Har Mee.

I feel I'm growing wider.

I feel like going shopping.

I feel like playing at arcade.

I feel like buying a new handphone.

I don't care.. after Moral test this weekend, I have to go somewhere!

My mission for today.
1. Clear my wardrobe and bedroom.
2. Arrange back my notes.
3. Update my folder.
4. Iron the stupid clothe.
5. Eat instant noodle.
6. Maybe go Jusco for awhile?
7. Read Moral. Lol.
8. Most importantly, get my 8hrs or more of sleep.

Random

I've been listening to that song over and over again since that day.
And after one year, I still have goosebumps whenever I listen.

So far,
It has always been...

1. Simple Plan - Untitled (2004)
   
2. Nickelback - Far Away (2006)
   
3. Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone (2007)
   
4. Taylor Swift - Teardrops On My Guitar (2006)
   

I'm still in love with 'When You're Gone'. =)

Omg, it's all emo songs!

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Today is Friday, and it is the last day!

Minus this weekend, (because I don't study during these 2 days)

I still have about 10 hours before the day ends.

Then on Monday,

It will be... Judgment Day.

What have I been doing these 2 weeks lar?

It was such a waste of time, but I'm loving every single minute of it.

The moments

1. Lunch at Sushi King with Tom, May Ling and Tiff.
   
2. Date with Tiff and Bear Bear at Manhattan. We also played arcade! It was sooo fun..
   
3. The day I owed Nirmala and Fitri during my lab test~
   
4. Heri's birthday at Medan!!
   
5. Subang Parade with my kor for his sister's present. Arcade again..!
6. Helped Tanrin so much for she'll be sitting for her IELTS soon.
7. In the library with... =))))

I'm addicted. Nooooo... I don't want to go back to how I used to be!
I have enough of that!

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I really want to go for graduation night! I don't mind not going for the 1st semester there for that

night. But, sad to say... I wont be able to make it.

Should I go for the birthday Bbq tomorrow? So tempted to go

I love chocolate milkshake. Thanks to Tom.

Shaq sent me to college this morning. We reached there about 7.10??

I got super low marks for my Economics Test. What a waste.

That's it I guess. Won't be blogging for these few days already.

This is a really crappy post.

Thoughts of the Day

When one is alone, one tends to think a lot. I'm speaking in general terms.

Personally, I fancy sitting in the bus alone, or walking alone. It's the time when I think about my life. Life concerning my problems, friends, studies, family, etc. It sometimes makes me smile, yet there are times when I just want to cry. People might think that I'm crazy, smiling for no reason. But, I just can't stop myself. =)

People had been disappointing me in the past. Mostly, friends that I've known of. I take friendship really seriously. Yet there are always things that bugs me. Particularly on little stuffs. I had a long chat with my friend the other day and I almost broke down, for the first time in front of that person. Not that I did it on purpose, it just...happened. But I managed to control it.

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The other thing is, I like to observe people. There is no need for me to start a conversation or whatsoever. I just like looking at them.

You will notice the people and the surroundings.

In the morning, there's this lady who always rush first into the train even if she's not standing in the front row. The way she does It really gets into people. Then, there's that nice old lady, and a girl from CBN, and a nerdy school kid from Chinese school and a school kid whom the mom always pampers. I don't really know when they leave coz I'm always sleeping.

The bus is always occupied by Taylor students, that if I'm not mistaken. There are 2 girls with books to their nose throughout the ride, then there's a group of mandarin-speaking people, and another annoying group coz there's this girl who always laughs very loud, and all the time. The rest mostly are alone, or with their partner. Oh, then there are 2 guys from my course! One is from Jan intake and the other is from March. So, I'm not alone. Hee.
There are a lot more, but don't really feel like writing. Basically, nothing much.

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I went for economics class this morning. I finally decided to take the bus from kl central for the first time. It is definitely faster but it was really scary. I didn't know where to wait, for one thing.. and the stop right after that is at pasar seni. I was alone in the bus and up came men that look like foreign workers. There were only me and all those people. One girl and more than 10 men. I always have this assumption that these people are those involve in crimes and stuffs. One of them even sat next to me when there are so many empty seats around. For sure I left and sat far away from that person. That is nothing, but it was scary when people look at you like one kind, especially if their eyes are set at one place. *shrugs*

After class, I went back home. I stopped by Subway to have lunch at kl central. Alone. I used to feel really awkward, but after a few rounds of McD alone there, I'm okay with having lunch by myself now.
On the way back, a mother and her 2 kids came in from the PC fair. I noticed that they're twins. Yeah, so what? But these kids opposite of me really caught my attention. One looks normal, but his twin, there are certain features of his face where one might think it is erm...abnormal? (*touch wood x 2*) Maybe the mom had difficulties in labour last time.

So maybe that's why she kinda care more for the abnormal one. She used her force to pull the other twin, but kept on stroking the hair of the abnormal one. It was really obvious and I wonder whether the other twin noticed that? Will he care about it in the future? Or will the abnormal twin be jealous of his brother?

No doubt the brothers care for each other, especially when they went Ahhh, with their mouth wide open when they reach the tunnel. It was really funny. Even the person next to me couldn't help smiling herself. The sad thing was, the abnormal one doesn't like to take photo. He only took once when his mom forced him to. The other twin happily showed his 2 toothless front.

That's basically it. Ciao~!

Hate

Just last year, on this day.. was the day I headed back to Ns Camp after a 3-day break. I hate to think about the time when I actually sent something to you. To think that I really put in quite some effort so that I could actually make it on time. It was far beyond the stupidity of me. The more I think about it, the more stupid I feel. It was such a waste of time.

I seriously hate you.

Maybe u do have your reasons last night, but I don't care. I still hate you.
It took lots of guts for me to actually find u but u didn't even appreciate it.
Like u would have cared.

We didn't contact with each other through phone for more than 3 months now. In fact, I've already lost your number. I wanted to say something last night, but u cut me off. I don't give a damn about it anymore.

See, even before this u never even make the first move to actually say hi to me.
Same as before. Like I said.. Who cares?

Maybe it's because I haven't found someone who can make me forget about the past. Haha.

Whatever.

This is the 3rd post.

MUFY Games

MUFY Games was a success!

Guess what I'd joined? Table tennis. Hahaha. The last time I touched the bat was erm.. 5 years ago? I remember doggy dear and I joined table tennis club when we were in form 2. That also I only played a few times. And that's it. I wanted to join badminton doubles with Janice2, but then the list was full by the time we reached there. So, it was either telematch, table tennis, netball or street soccer. Table tennis is one of the games I noe a little. =)

I lost in the first round itself. My competitor wasn't really that good but, I still lost. That shows how suck I did. There were times where both of us were passing on to each other as if we were playing badminton! That was really funny. Well, at least I did won the first match, but lost in the second and the third. I wanted to go for the second round but then I guess luck wasn't by my side.

After waiting for Janice3, Li Chien, and Yu Jia to finish, I went to the basketball court to join May Ling and Erica. By the time I reached there, Terry and Shaq's game just ended. What a waste. Instead, I got to watch racoon's game. He looked totally different than his usual look. He looked kinda hot. Omg! What am I saying? Even someone was asking, what's with all the girls with him? Hahaha.. sorry lar. I didn't even bother looking before but my friend kept on gossiping to me about him. That's kinda how he got my attention. If I tell her something.. she'll break up with me man. Hahaha. Thanks to May Ling's balloon.

I wanted to watch more of the game, but one of my friends happened to ask for my help. I didn't noe what to do.. but she was holding my hand and pulling me towards a bench nearby..in front of so many people. They were cheering for the game while I was stuck with English. I was trying to ask for help when Terry came, but he didn't really get what I was saying. I tried digging into my brain but I couldn't think. Even more, her presentation was on the next day and can say she's a little bit erm... But a really nice person.

My kor's call sort of saved my day. I left her and my 2nd dear. Yes, I'm evil but at least I've tried. I went back to the hall to watch my kor's final. He was really good. The best part was, he won!

Random

• My first dear ditched me again for her boyfriend. We promised to go dating at Sakae Sushi, but ended up she .... =(
• The Jan/Mar intakes Mufy-ians were taking over! No~~!! Why are there more blues than blacks? What's with the lecturers with their new t-shirt??
• Good job August intakes! We still beat them more in games!