Words to Fill My Time

Something's weird is going on. For no obvious reason, my blog posts are getting lesser. Not only lesser, shorter as well. There were a few happenings that had happened recently, but I find it quite unnecessary to show it in public. In fact, I find each of my posts are turning into those boring, normal, typical complaint type of blog. If I can have one other wish besides the one I had wished for for my birthday, I wish I can put my thoughts into words for my blog the moment I thought of something. That could be dangerous though. Imagine the devil side of me take place. Feelings of anger, jealousy, revenge all jammed up together and put into writing. What would happen then? Or what if I keep telling myself that I'm hurt badly? Is it to gain sympathy? Or I just want it to be heard by others?

These days, I've been trying to write something, to just express it out. However, just as my finger tip touched the keyboard, I exited the whole thing. I'm becoming lazy, I know. I sort of read through some of my old posts recently, I think I did quite a good job. Lol, at least I do find it more entertaining than the ones now. More words and less pictures. But now? It totally changed. To the better? No, not at the very least.

I've been training my eyes to stare at the computer screen for hours now, alone. Who knows, I may have a company next to me now. If you know what I mean. I'm not afraid though. It's way past the ghost time. Haha! And it's practically turning dawn..so I'm not scared. Just tired. Yet, I don't feel like sleeping. All I know now is, I want to write something. Just something, even meaningless words, to fill up the space. See, even now... I don't know what I'm writing about, or thinking about.

Life is complicated if you think it that way.


So, why not just not think about it at all?


You think life is that simple? Just erase it off and everything will be gone?
What is there to think about anyway? What is it that keeps bugging me every time? I'm not in the same situation as my other friends, who are busy preparing for their exams. I don't have anything to worry. So, what is it? In case you're wondering, it's not about that okay, nothing to do with that. And this time, I mean it. Nothing happened, and never will.

Now, I'm in the mood of blogging once more. Yays! See, my mood changes easily.

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The New Look

Yay, new blog header. =)
It's not thattttt perfect...but I guess this will do, and I do kinda like it.
Simpler and the photos this time are much more in order compare to my previous one.

With a little touch of photoshop,
I've turned from this...


To this...


Okay, the original background is much nicer than the header now. Hmmm.. like who cares?
One more thing, I can't find that many photos of me cam-whoring by myself. Most of the photos above have been displayed before in Msn display picture. I know I'm the type who would feel really self conscious whenever a person wants to take a photo of me alone. So, I'm still not used to have single photos of myself but I think I'm beginning to like it. Lol

Shit, if my sis reads this... she will surely say something!!
I can even imagine it already. Her first word will be this...


EEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
Camwhore!!!!


Die. I'm turning into a camwhore.

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One Second

In just a blink of an eye; barely even a second, the feelings that I had before just disappeared.
It shouldn't have happened that way it turned out to be.
I can't help myself for thinking about it, can't I?

I know the fact that it cannot be denied. Though at certain times, I do wish it didn't happen you know?
But, then again... I should be grateful.
At least I now know the true meaning of being in it.

Truth... Promises... Hope...
Lies... Broken promises... Despair...
All under the canopy of ____


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Mother Me.

We were hanging out at Old Town for dinner when my mom suggested to shop for food at the supermarket. We bought lots and lots of type of foods ranging from snacks to biscuits, packs of instant noodles to spaghetti, vitagen to sparkling juice.. you name it. =)

As one of my usual favorite supper, I had my instant noodle. The one that I had just bought.

Notice anything different? Thought so.

My bro was asking me, what type of instant noodle was I eating?
I replied him with this short answer, "As usual la. What else?"

He came up to me and checked the brand.

What the...?

Indo Mee became Ibumie???

14th October 2008

First of all,

I wanna thank my parents, especially my mom for giving me a really big surprise by coming to my workplace herself, accompanied by my sis to give my first-ever-bunch of flowers for my birthday.
She wanted it to be delivered, rather than giving it in front of me. But she did pass it to Melissa, who was just beside me.


No one was suppose to know it was my birthday okay.
As always, rumors spread.
From the department downstairs, to the second floor. I felt like I was in the center of attention for the first time.

I celebrated with my parents and my sis by having lunch with them at Marco Polo. I love their dim sums!

They bought a chocolate cake from Le Meridien. It wasn't that nice as I prefer cheesecake. Hehe.


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Next,

To my animals, for being able to be there with me during the night at Wings Cafe. Though it was pretty simple, yet it was one memorable night for me.


To my college friends, for flying all the way to KLCC from Sunway after their classes ended. Usually, I was the one who have to give in by making Pyramid as our usual hang out complex for movies and to chill out.

For the first time, they gave in. For me! So cool right?
For the first time, I had Chili's. I know, don't mention it. .
For the first time, I had lamb shoulder all by myself.
For the first time, I received a really hugeeeeeeeeeeeeee doggy!!

They tricked me by giving me this medium sized paper bag in the beginning.

Tom : Yen-yen, this is for you. *shoved the present to me*
Me : Omg, thank you!
Tom : No lar, this is not for you.
Me : Omg, I feel so malu. Omg, omg..

Then all a sudden,

Tom : This one only is for you!!

They gave me this huge plastic bag!
I was really touched okay. Haha.
And tiger konon. Wth.



I really had a great time talking with all of them. The feeling was GREAT! After much frustration from the office, I had the chance of not thinking about anything else at all, except about them. Seriously. Not even once.

So, it ended with a surprise molten chocolate cake.


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Thanks to this person, for actually embarrassing me right in front of the Head of Operation. He said my face was blushing like mad. Did I actually blush? Why do they always say I blush all the time??


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Last but not least,

Thank you for ur wishes in sms-es, calls, friendster messages and facebook walls.

A few friends and sisters from overseas actually messaged me.
The weird thing was, a friend whom I don't contact for more than 2 years wished me and even a few NS friends whom I don't even rmb their names called me.

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I'd wished for something impossible this year though I know it won't come true.