Che Go

I didn't feel as awkward with them compare to the time I met them for a movie at The Curve. Maybe cause the last time, I haven't seen them for a really really long time. My mind was always repeating this sentence, "Shit, what to talk to them?" Have you ever noticed that I always use the word shit, fuck and omg? Maybe you don't, but now you do. I always have this problem of communicating with other people, as how Lin told me. Die lar.

And so barely after a week, we met up again for Tiff's Birthday. We went to Che Go at Sunway Pyramid. We were suppose to go ice skating after that, but we sat there for a few hours, so we went back home straight after dinner.

See, my photography skill so nice right??



We ordered one set, which is meant for 6-7 people. I thought it wouldn't be enough but the portion was just right.

The waiter barbecuing the beef for us. I love their beef!


Birthday Girl. Wasted she never took with the present someone picked out for her.


First take. The waitress actually got one of her fingers on the camera lens but I expertly deleted it with Paint. =)

Second Take.

Front Row From Left: Tom, Eric, Tiff, Me, Janice2

Back Row From Left : Terry, Gunawan, May Ling

The couple.

We laughed a lot, we ate a lot, we talked a lot. Even about soup kambing and the raw vegetable. Only they will know exactly what I'm talking about. Janice said I sounded so happy that time... and hell yeah, I was. Like how I told someone, I can really be myself when I'm with them. This is a kind of friendship I like. I really hope this will last.

Here Goes...

I blame myself for going out so many times. I blame myself for not having any idea on what to write. But most of all, I blame myself for being so so lazy. There are times when I do have the mood and there are times when I don't, of course. That's why when I start writing, I will try to continue doing it the next day because the moment I stop to think, my mind just... goes blank.

It seems like a long time since I last hang out with my own friends, and even... =) I feel like I'm losing part of them in me. There was once when we hang out every week, then our outings became every fortnight, and now, it's more than a few months already. I don't really count our last meeting as one of our outings cause we barely even reached 5 minutes when we had to split up. Don't get offended Nar, what I meant is like the whole gang. And when was the last time? I think all of us can answer that. SJ's farewell which was in September last year.

When I went for a holiday in December, I was kinda jealous cause the thought of all of them celebrating Christmas or at least New Year together without me is just killling me. Call me a sensitive bitch or whatever, I don't care. But, all their plans which had been made earlier.. just disappeared. That easily. Like always. And not to forget, them still able to go clubbing even without me cause I have work the next day. It kinda hurts but I'm over it now.

I'm starting to wonder, what is happening to all of us? Everyone seems to have their own set of friends. I am not excluded cause I know I myself have been hanging out with my other friends more often than my own animals. Among everyone of us, I feel like I'm the one who is missing out the most. The one who is the most outdated. Ok lar, some of the times are my fault. I know, it has always been like this. Me not replying their text messages, me not being able to make it for the outings, me not taking the initiative to make the first move. Sooner or later, I won't have any friends at all. Wtf. It will happen one day if I don't start to fix things now before things turn from being bad to worse.

Ever since my contract ended in December, I've been hanging out with this person lesser and lesser. At least last time after work, we were still able to meet up, for a few hours before this person send me back home. 2009 is even worse. I think I can even count the number of times, which I will not mention it here. Maybe, just maybe... I'm starting to feel the guilt of doing things behind my parents' back. It's so much easier to ask my mom's permission when I say I'm going out with my college friends than having to lie to them.

There are times when I feel like giving up, but we still manage to hang on...thanks to this person. I know these days I am always the one who is upset over something, saying words which I shouldn't, starting the fight without any proper reasons, but every girl wants and needs something...to be loved. That's it. Well, most of the people, including guys.. prefer to be loved than to love. I think it's kinda true. I don't know.

Now, I feel even worse after doing something I shouldn't on that night. It was really an accident. Who would have thought? This person had already warned me earlier, and he has the right to be upset over it.

***

It's less than a month now.
I'll be leaving soon and I'm still not ready to leave my comfort zone.
I'm scared... I will really miss all of you. I know you will know if you are the one.

Oh, btw, I lost my virginity recently! Hahaha.. You will know in the next next post. ^^

Something More Personal

Reading his blog recently made me realize something. I thought I have gotten over the past but there is a faint possibility that I have not. So does this mean that everything I have now isn't real? Or, does this mean that I have turned myself into someone I'm not proud of?

Like I told him...I had goosebumps after reading that particular post of him.

I'm so dead.
How am I suppose to fix this?
Can I turn back time?

Help me...

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A Package for Me

When I came back from the dentist appointment, I found a package waiting for me! My dad was so considerate for waiting patiently for me and my bro to come back to open the package together. Lol. We were supposed to wait for my bro, but we couldn't because I had to go out in the evening. We couldn't do it the next day too because of me. Awww... It's so pretty. Even the box. Wtf. This news may not be really huge or something but for our family, it is pretty much.a.big.thing.

Guess what this is?


So cool right? My beloved, first ever laptop which I have ever owned! I chose red because I don't want to be the same as others. Not that the rest of the colours are ugly, but red for me is much more striking and you don't see that many red laptops in public right?

So, it is now placed on Dell Box, on the floor, without even a table or a chair to go with because there's no room for extra in my house. And you know why? Scroll down if you wish to.

We have our main computer, which we call it, 'The House Computer'. This is where all our documents and folders are kept. I'm using it to type this post now.

Next, my brother's computer. He doesn't need a high quality speaker because most of the time, my sister or I would be the one playing our music.

And lastly, my sister's computer...which also set on the floor.

Now you can guess why this news is BIG? Well, it's big for me because my dad suddenly came to his senses to actually order the laptop online for Christmas promotion on the last night. You heard me? He ordered around 11pm plus because there are few extra free upgrades if you order them before 5th January, which is like 3 days after we reached home from Aussie.

Desktops although are much stable and faster, they can't beat the weight of laptops. Meaning my dad doesn't need to carry that many boxes like how he used to for my eldest sister, brother and my second sister. You see, we need a box for the LCD, monitor, keyboard and mouse and speaker in one, and a scanner. A computer itself need so many boxes, what about the rest of the luggages? And they are extremely heavy to move around. I'm happy for my dad actually. The weight would lessen the burden for my dad. So you see? We now have 4 computers at home. And, they are always turned on!

What I like about going to Aussie is having to have my own things, things which I can call them MINE. For instance, MY own brand new laptop, MY own camera, MY own baby pillow, MY own accessories and MY own clothes. I don't need to share them no more.

So here's the specs for my laptop. Click to enlarge, that if you want.

I didn't get the Intel Core 2 Duo Processor and the 3GB RAM, but I don't mind. I'm still happy with mine =)

Education Fair 2009

Before meeting up with the rest of the animals at KLCC for the Education Fair, I had lunch with my family at this place called Chinese Village near Jalan Imbi. We have been here quite many times already, from my relatives to my sisters. If you don't mind hot and dirty place, you will certainly enjoy it. First of all, obviously it's good. Secondly, it's really cheap.

The picture doesn't look as good as the real thing.

Dunno what kinda of pork .

Tao Si Fish. I love this. But the fish looks so ugly in the picture. Must be because it's the wrong angle. This reminds me of ...


KL taking the photo of her dish at the Apartment KLCC.

Nyonya Ching. Rm22 per fish. Super cheap right?? Where can get this price? Plus, the fish is HUGE.

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After lunch, my 2 sisters and I met up with Ann, Lin, Jin, Nar, TJ and Jason at KLCC Convention Center for a few minutes because we were late for the talk where Nar wanted to go. So we split up. They went to Starbucks while we went for the talk.

In the Hall. It was really boring so we decided to go off earlier than we expected. I think we talked more than we listened.

Then, we headed towards the exhibition downstairs where they have all the universtities booths there. We met so many of my sister's friends. What the hell. Really, I think most of her generation were there because they are all after SPM.

Monash Uni

My Ex College. I really love this college!

The college where I wanted to go last time. Don't ask me what course I wanted to take.

We went to a few booths, then Nar went off her own while my sisters and I waited for her outside. Met up with Jin later on because the rest had already gone back, leaving her alone. So CHAM lar. Opps, sorry Lin. You might have ur reasons.

Then Nar was like.. "Eh, take picture, take picture!" And we did. Omg, all almost the same height except for my youngest sister. Yes, the one in red is my YOUNGEST sister.

For dinner, we went to Little Penang Cafe. It's like a tradition of Lee sisters to go there whenever we go to KLCC.

Ordered Cendol.


Nar wanted to take the before and after mixing it up. Sweat.

Yoongs's

Nar, Uuks and mine. I took a few (Only they knew what happened) but uploaded only 1 because they all looked the same to me.

After dinner, we met up with KL near Roti Boy shop. Wow right? Haha, I'm really glad for being able to meet up with all the animals in one day. SJ, you're not forgotten. We did talk about u too. My sisters and I went back with KL by train. We talked quite a lot. And KL showed me her picture in her college brochure. Gratz KL! =D

My Fav Roti Boy