I was wondering, who am I closest to among all my friends? I seriously don't know myself. At times, I feel like I'm avoiding them. I've been doing something stupid just to not talk to them or not even to meet them.
For instance, going to college extremely early, leaving college later than usual, hiding in other floors, skipping lunch sometimes, and lastly, making myself invincible after class. Why am I doing this?
Whenever I walk down the 2nd floor foyer, I feel so lonely. Everyone will be talking and laughing among each other. But what about me? Why am I still hiding away from the crowd? Or hiding away from my friends? I have friends, but not close friends. They're just...friends. I think. That I'm only referring to certain ppl.
I feel really embarrassed whenever I see the three of them. I dunno why but, either they skip class or either they always have free periods or maybe their classes always end up early or something. I don't know! All I know is that, they'll always see me walking alone, especially after computer class.
I hate computer class! It's not that I hate the subject or anything, but I hate the ppl over there. Our class is divided into groups. We have the mandarin gang, the Indonesian gang, and the two couples that are inseparable. So, where do I stand I wonder? I have to stick to the Indonesian gang coz I don't really have others to go to. That I don't mind, coz at least I know 2 of them.
What bothers me the most is, having her in class but not having her to sit next to me whenever possible. Yes, I can be considered one of the most boring ppl among all her friends. So, I guess I can't complain. It still hurts.
However, I still feel lucky to have them by my side. I'm happy with my group of friends actually. For me, they can be considered the most I want to mix around with. It's not a lot, but now I prefer smaller groups. One thing, they will always stick with me and always by my side. I'm really glad to have them.
I found something odd though, I'm getting closer to this person. I mean, it's seriously weird. No one would ever thought of that. Hopefully, things will work out for the two of them.
For instance, going to college extremely early, leaving college later than usual, hiding in other floors, skipping lunch sometimes, and lastly, making myself invincible after class. Why am I doing this?
Whenever I walk down the 2nd floor foyer, I feel so lonely. Everyone will be talking and laughing among each other. But what about me? Why am I still hiding away from the crowd? Or hiding away from my friends? I have friends, but not close friends. They're just...friends. I think. That I'm only referring to certain ppl.
I feel really embarrassed whenever I see the three of them. I dunno why but, either they skip class or either they always have free periods or maybe their classes always end up early or something. I don't know! All I know is that, they'll always see me walking alone, especially after computer class.
I hate computer class! It's not that I hate the subject or anything, but I hate the ppl over there. Our class is divided into groups. We have the mandarin gang, the Indonesian gang, and the two couples that are inseparable. So, where do I stand I wonder? I have to stick to the Indonesian gang coz I don't really have others to go to. That I don't mind, coz at least I know 2 of them.
What bothers me the most is, having her in class but not having her to sit next to me whenever possible. Yes, I can be considered one of the most boring ppl among all her friends. So, I guess I can't complain. It still hurts.
However, I still feel lucky to have them by my side. I'm happy with my group of friends actually. For me, they can be considered the most I want to mix around with. It's not a lot, but now I prefer smaller groups. One thing, they will always stick with me and always by my side. I'm really glad to have them.
I found something odd though, I'm getting closer to this person. I mean, it's seriously weird. No one would ever thought of that. Hopefully, things will work out for the two of them.
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