Fulfilled

Games are addictive.
Especially Maple Story..
I'm addicted to MS once more..!!
Arghhhh...

Maple Story ruins life.

Trust me. I've experienced this before.
It started when we first applied for streamyx when I was in form 4. I introduced this game to my sisters coz most of my friends were talking bout this game. So, that was how it all began. I ruined my life. I did badly in Spm, piano exam and destroyed my social net life.

People may say that it's a lame game. But whatever, like I give a damn. Like lar Dota is THAT great. Different people have different interest okay.

Anyway, I played till 3+ in the morning. I love playing at night. At least there are older users there instead of just kids. I didn't want to offline, but I was lagging like mad so I had to. Last night was super fun, and funny! Chatted the whole night through.

The next morning, I woke up about 9am. Weird. What made me wake up I dunno. I went online for awhile after that. Thought of going Ts and Sg Wang to buy some stuffs. And so I did.

I went there alone. I know, I've no other friends to go with. That just showed how limited my friends are. I went there alone. When was the last time I went there? I can't rmb. I just felt so lost. But the feeling just faded away when I went to the arcade centre. There were a bunch of small kids, a bunch of teenagers, and there are those who came alone.

I started off with rock fever and went on with time crisis. I feel like I'm getting pro ady. =) Hahaha! Okay okay, maybe just a little better. I was actually enjoying playing myself. @.@ till that one stupid guy. He smiled at me. Fine, I smiled back. Then he started speaking in mandarin. I was like.. -_-''? I don't understand.

He then changed to Cantonese when I said I don't understand. He actually introduced himself. Wth was that for? Then he kept on apologizing for interrupting my game. He made me die in the first round okay! Waste of money. I moved on to time crisis again.

He followed me and started talking that he wanted to know more friends, about wanting to add me in Friendster, asking me whether I'm available or not, asking whether I online often. Wtf. I answered all the total opposite. I couldn't stand him, so I took my bag, said "Bye Bye" and went away.

Stupid. Just this morning I was talking to my friend, saying that I dressed really ugly today. I dunno why I dare to go out with that clothe. Haha. but I wasn't in the mood to dress up anyway.

Next, I headed to Borders. I finally found Starbucks, the one my friend was talking about. I didn't know it was at a secluded area. Well, sort of. Bought myself a novel. (15% off!!) Read till chapter 3 already and it is real good.

Lastly, I went to Sg Wang to fix one of my gadgets. He told me to come back a day or two later. Fine, it will be another day of arcade and shopping for me again!

Huhu.. I love holidays.. =)

The Maiden's Prayer

I just made a fool out of myself for like... 1 minute?
I know, it's nothing..
but what if it was in front of the person related to you but not close either?

Haha, whatever am I crapping,
I think this holiday is making me a little ... I dunno, i can't seem to find a suitable word..

So yeah, my relatives took my bro and I out for dinner today. They stopped by our house before going back. My grandpa started playing the piano, China national anthem song.. I'm guessing that he learned how to play piano by listening. That's so cool man.

After playing, he started browsing through some of the piano books. Nobody really mind him doing that. It was then the minute they wanted to go back. He started searching for that one particular song in his mind.

He wanted to play but he couldn't really hear. He played a little, humming a little of the melody. Hehe, he was so cute back then. I didn't really know what song was that coz the title was written in Chinese, but then... looking at the notes, I knew I had played that song before. I just can't seem to rmb when and which book.

He asked me to play. Yeap, so I did. And I suck!! I was so nervous okay. I was actually sweating and shaking while playing that 1 page. Hahaha. That 1 minute seems like an hour to me. I just couldn't seem to play in front of someone. Those who know me will know. I rmb the last I played the piano at college. I was practically shaking and I couldn't even rmb the notes!

The more I play the more I know what song was it. Just, I can't seem to recall.

I looked at him, and said "Ngo mm kei tak jor wor. Ha chi lei lei ngo ke ou kei, ngo pei lei teng ngo tang lar". ( I forgot ady. The next time u come to my house I let u listen how I play ). English words to those who can't read my pinyin words. I know it's all wrong. =T

After they left, I searched again for that song in another book. All a sudden it came to my mind. The song piece was called "The Maiden's Prayer". I'm sure those who played piano before would have heard of this. I checked out the date I played. It was in May 2006. *Heart dropped*. 2 years ago??? I dunno how the hell I can even rmb the song title. Maybe coz the beginning of the song was a little different compare to the rest.

That's it. It's a small mater. Lol, whatever. I'm just making a big deal out of it.
I made a fool out of my 97 years old grandpa.
And the thing is, I don't really talk to him much except hi and bye.

Love

Mission on Friday : Failed.

I only accomplished half of it. I guess I have to continue on Sunday.
I did not arrange my notes.
I slept for 5 hours only.
I did not go to Jusco to buy some stuffs.

Instead, I spent my whole afternoon playing maple and watching 2 movies by myself.

*****

I thought I was late for Moral test this morning. Actually, I was late for about 15mins... but there was another exam going on before us, so yeah.. they ended late and they made us wait.

I went to college a little later than usual this morning, which was 1 hour 30mins before. Lol, and I still couldn't reach on time.

1st dear called me 7 mins before the test... and then I heard Andrew's voice on the phone.. "Where's yen yen? Yen yen...we miss you!" I was like.. so sweat. I think the man beside me could even hear him. I was saying to 1st dear.. "I'm coming already!!!"

I forgot to bring my monthly ticket,
I dunno a single clue about Moral,
I wasn't sure where was I heading,
I could be exempted if I reach a little later,
I took the cab to college from Pyramid,
I used the elevator ( no need for me to climb up the stairs )
Went up to the 4th floor,
Found my friends,
And waited.

Total = Rm9.30.
Excluding all the sms, time, and effort..
It took me about less than an hour to finish up the paper.

Okay, after the test.. we went to Pyramid for a movie. Omg, I dunno how many decades since I last watched one. I don't even rmb what was my last movie?! It's either I was busy, or I have no friends to go with, or... I don't know! I feel so outdated. =(

I followed the Janice-es, Sze Chi and Chien to Pyramid first. I was so desperate for a movie. We went to buy the movie tickets for the 11 of us. The only place left was the 1st, 2nd and 3rd row! We just had to bear with the 3rd row.

It wasn't as bad as we thought though. Besides, I had free popcorn and I got to put my legs on the chair in front of me. -.-ll The movie was quite funny, I kinda salute M'sia ady! They didn't censor as much as they used to last time! It was weird~ @.@

Had lunch at Gasoline. Erm, I was kinda upset when it didn't go as well as I've expected. I told lost puppy about it. Sometimes, I don't want to look at things at just 1 point of view. I have enough of this from my mom and brother. It's your choice.. so, just stick with it.

Anyway, I love arcade games.. I just L.O.V.E. it.

I kinda suck, but playing those games there it's like taking pain killer, or stress relief or anything which makes me forget about other stuffs. I love playing with lost puppy today. Coz, I beat him!!! Hahahaha~~

Oh yeah... I'm finally saying this out to public. =) I'm gonna remind him again the next time I meet him xD

I still cannot beat my kor though. Haihz, he said I'm kiasu and I think, he's is right.

Janice2, second chance next time. =)

1st dear, we play that game again.

Guys, girls, anyone...
Just...bring me to any arcade centre.

After went back home, my sis and I stopped by at pasar malam. The fried oyster guy still rmb me. =) It was like after so so long, and he still spoke to me in English.
I actually don't like oysters. I just like their eggs.

After Trials

My life is now so meaningless. I need something to help me pass my time.. Like what my friend said in her blog,

We will only regret things that we used to not appreciate before the moment we lose them. (Chiong.E, 2008)

Trials just ended for me so currently having break from today onwards till 4th of May which is almost equivalent to one week. That if I exclude today and Saturday.
I always wished for a long term break and it's happening.. but now? I've already started...complaining! Then I'll be complaining again once I gotta go back to college.

Okay, mine doesn't really fit the meaning of the statement above, but still it does.
Haha, I don't really have anything better to do but to crap.

*****

Recently, life was really tough. Well, it's due to my last minute revision for sure. I sort of regretted for not having the mood to revise as I was rushing to finish off whatever I learned the next morning.

Maths - Wasn't sure of the answers. I guess I was too used having answers before I actually do the questions.

English - Bad.. bad...Badddddd.. My first essay sucks to the max. I spent too long on comprehension and lastly, my 3rd argument for another essay wasn't relevant.
I hereby declare that I hate English forever and ever!

Accounting - Hmmm, should be all right. I was lucky enough to be able to do it considering I only started the night before. =)

Economics - I thought I'd already given up the night before. It's like, there's so much to study.. The whole of Micro and Macro, from the moment I stepped into Mufy till the end.
I read the 1st quest. My first reaction was... ???
Next quest. Another of ???
3rd, ???
It went on till the 6th. I was only able to answer 1/6 properly. One of them I only drew the diagram, and defined it. That's it. It shows how badly I did. 1st dear also left the hall earlier. Wth?

Computer Science - Programming sucks. That's all I can say. I definitely lost a total of 20marks already.

*****

Went to Pyramid yesterday with Sze Chi, Janice2 and 3. We were suppose to watch movie. Well I wanted to, but *ahem*, someone doesn't want. Fine fine, she owes me big time. Had lunch together at Kim Gary.

After lunch, Janice2 and I went back to the car park to get my stuffs. We kinda got lost. =P U noe lar, okay maybe not all of u... my sense of direction is damn good. I can never recognize the place/roads/directions no matter how many times I go. It's officially proven. Imagine asking me to go to green hut again. Hahaha.

Well, it was my first time going out with them. Overall, it was kinda nice although it was short.

We passed by the arcade. It somehow reminds me of the times I used to spend time at arcade.

*****

My parents will be going to Sg today. What am I going to do at home?? Arhhh.. I'm stuck. Alone. Why lar my gang will only finish their paper later? Well, except for Gunawan. I bet he's gonna play Dota the whole night.

I feel like going out.

I feel like buying a book.

I feel like eating Har Mee.

I feel I'm growing wider.

I feel like going shopping.

I feel like playing at arcade.

I feel like buying a new handphone.

I don't care.. after Moral test this weekend, I have to go somewhere!

My mission for today.
1. Clear my wardrobe and bedroom.
2. Arrange back my notes.
3. Update my folder.
4. Iron the stupid clothe.
5. Eat instant noodle.
6. Maybe go Jusco for awhile?
7. Read Moral. Lol.
8. Most importantly, get my 8hrs or more of sleep.

Random

I've been listening to that song over and over again since that day.
And after one year, I still have goosebumps whenever I listen.

So far,
It has always been...

1. Simple Plan - Untitled (2004)
   
2. Nickelback - Far Away (2006)
   
3. Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone (2007)
   
4. Taylor Swift - Teardrops On My Guitar (2006)
   

I'm still in love with 'When You're Gone'. =)

Omg, it's all emo songs!

*****

Today is Friday, and it is the last day!

Minus this weekend, (because I don't study during these 2 days)

I still have about 10 hours before the day ends.

Then on Monday,

It will be... Judgment Day.

What have I been doing these 2 weeks lar?

It was such a waste of time, but I'm loving every single minute of it.

The moments

1. Lunch at Sushi King with Tom, May Ling and Tiff.
   
2. Date with Tiff and Bear Bear at Manhattan. We also played arcade! It was sooo fun..
   
3. The day I owed Nirmala and Fitri during my lab test~
   
4. Heri's birthday at Medan!!
   
5. Subang Parade with my kor for his sister's present. Arcade again..!
6. Helped Tanrin so much for she'll be sitting for her IELTS soon.
7. In the library with... =))))

I'm addicted. Nooooo... I don't want to go back to how I used to be!
I have enough of that!

*****

I really want to go for graduation night! I don't mind not going for the 1st semester there for that

night. But, sad to say... I wont be able to make it.

Should I go for the birthday Bbq tomorrow? So tempted to go

I love chocolate milkshake. Thanks to Tom.

Shaq sent me to college this morning. We reached there about 7.10??

I got super low marks for my Economics Test. What a waste.

That's it I guess. Won't be blogging for these few days already.

This is a really crappy post.

Thoughts of the Day

When one is alone, one tends to think a lot. I'm speaking in general terms.

Personally, I fancy sitting in the bus alone, or walking alone. It's the time when I think about my life. Life concerning my problems, friends, studies, family, etc. It sometimes makes me smile, yet there are times when I just want to cry. People might think that I'm crazy, smiling for no reason. But, I just can't stop myself. =)

People had been disappointing me in the past. Mostly, friends that I've known of. I take friendship really seriously. Yet there are always things that bugs me. Particularly on little stuffs. I had a long chat with my friend the other day and I almost broke down, for the first time in front of that person. Not that I did it on purpose, it just...happened. But I managed to control it.

*****

The other thing is, I like to observe people. There is no need for me to start a conversation or whatsoever. I just like looking at them.

You will notice the people and the surroundings.

In the morning, there's this lady who always rush first into the train even if she's not standing in the front row. The way she does It really gets into people. Then, there's that nice old lady, and a girl from CBN, and a nerdy school kid from Chinese school and a school kid whom the mom always pampers. I don't really know when they leave coz I'm always sleeping.

The bus is always occupied by Taylor students, that if I'm not mistaken. There are 2 girls with books to their nose throughout the ride, then there's a group of mandarin-speaking people, and another annoying group coz there's this girl who always laughs very loud, and all the time. The rest mostly are alone, or with their partner. Oh, then there are 2 guys from my course! One is from Jan intake and the other is from March. So, I'm not alone. Hee.
There are a lot more, but don't really feel like writing. Basically, nothing much.

*****

I went for economics class this morning. I finally decided to take the bus from kl central for the first time. It is definitely faster but it was really scary. I didn't know where to wait, for one thing.. and the stop right after that is at pasar seni. I was alone in the bus and up came men that look like foreign workers. There were only me and all those people. One girl and more than 10 men. I always have this assumption that these people are those involve in crimes and stuffs. One of them even sat next to me when there are so many empty seats around. For sure I left and sat far away from that person. That is nothing, but it was scary when people look at you like one kind, especially if their eyes are set at one place. *shrugs*

After class, I went back home. I stopped by Subway to have lunch at kl central. Alone. I used to feel really awkward, but after a few rounds of McD alone there, I'm okay with having lunch by myself now.
On the way back, a mother and her 2 kids came in from the PC fair. I noticed that they're twins. Yeah, so what? But these kids opposite of me really caught my attention. One looks normal, but his twin, there are certain features of his face where one might think it is erm...abnormal? (*touch wood x 2*) Maybe the mom had difficulties in labour last time.

So maybe that's why she kinda care more for the abnormal one. She used her force to pull the other twin, but kept on stroking the hair of the abnormal one. It was really obvious and I wonder whether the other twin noticed that? Will he care about it in the future? Or will the abnormal twin be jealous of his brother?

No doubt the brothers care for each other, especially when they went Ahhh, with their mouth wide open when they reach the tunnel. It was really funny. Even the person next to me couldn't help smiling herself. The sad thing was, the abnormal one doesn't like to take photo. He only took once when his mom forced him to. The other twin happily showed his 2 toothless front.

That's basically it. Ciao~!

Hate

Just last year, on this day.. was the day I headed back to Ns Camp after a 3-day break. I hate to think about the time when I actually sent something to you. To think that I really put in quite some effort so that I could actually make it on time. It was far beyond the stupidity of me. The more I think about it, the more stupid I feel. It was such a waste of time.

I seriously hate you.

Maybe u do have your reasons last night, but I don't care. I still hate you.
It took lots of guts for me to actually find u but u didn't even appreciate it.
Like u would have cared.

We didn't contact with each other through phone for more than 3 months now. In fact, I've already lost your number. I wanted to say something last night, but u cut me off. I don't give a damn about it anymore.

See, even before this u never even make the first move to actually say hi to me.
Same as before. Like I said.. Who cares?

Maybe it's because I haven't found someone who can make me forget about the past. Haha.

Whatever.

This is the 3rd post.

MUFY Games

MUFY Games was a success!

Guess what I'd joined? Table tennis. Hahaha. The last time I touched the bat was erm.. 5 years ago? I remember doggy dear and I joined table tennis club when we were in form 2. That also I only played a few times. And that's it. I wanted to join badminton doubles with Janice2, but then the list was full by the time we reached there. So, it was either telematch, table tennis, netball or street soccer. Table tennis is one of the games I noe a little. =)

I lost in the first round itself. My competitor wasn't really that good but, I still lost. That shows how suck I did. There were times where both of us were passing on to each other as if we were playing badminton! That was really funny. Well, at least I did won the first match, but lost in the second and the third. I wanted to go for the second round but then I guess luck wasn't by my side.

After waiting for Janice3, Li Chien, and Yu Jia to finish, I went to the basketball court to join May Ling and Erica. By the time I reached there, Terry and Shaq's game just ended. What a waste. Instead, I got to watch racoon's game. He looked totally different than his usual look. He looked kinda hot. Omg! What am I saying? Even someone was asking, what's with all the girls with him? Hahaha.. sorry lar. I didn't even bother looking before but my friend kept on gossiping to me about him. That's kinda how he got my attention. If I tell her something.. she'll break up with me man. Hahaha. Thanks to May Ling's balloon.

I wanted to watch more of the game, but one of my friends happened to ask for my help. I didn't noe what to do.. but she was holding my hand and pulling me towards a bench nearby..in front of so many people. They were cheering for the game while I was stuck with English. I was trying to ask for help when Terry came, but he didn't really get what I was saying. I tried digging into my brain but I couldn't think. Even more, her presentation was on the next day and can say she's a little bit erm... But a really nice person.

My kor's call sort of saved my day. I left her and my 2nd dear. Yes, I'm evil but at least I've tried. I went back to the hall to watch my kor's final. He was really good. The best part was, he won!

Random

• My first dear ditched me again for her boyfriend. We promised to go dating at Sakae Sushi, but ended up she .... =(
• The Jan/Mar intakes Mufy-ians were taking over! No~~!! Why are there more blues than blacks? What's with the lecturers with their new t-shirt??
• Good job August intakes! We still beat them more in games!