Last Week

Should I start from my exam week? Maybe I should. No wait, I think I like it better after the exam... which was last Friday, after my last exam.. I don't wanna complain about my exams no more! If I start writing now, I can never guarantee when will I stop.

It's all about smiles and happy memories. For now.

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Friday

Went to Neway with Janice-es gang. There weren't many choices over there. I mean for English songs lar. So, the 3 bananas ( Janice2, Sze Chi and I ) had to suffer for a little while the other 4 ( Janice1, Janice3, Elaine, and Li Chien ) had more chance to show off their potential. Had lunch over there and we stayed till bout 7 or later I think. At least I started to sing more. I mean like.. much more compare to last time. Basically, I'm still learning. But, I know I've changed. To the better. =)

We were suppose to have steamboat buffet for dinner but I was too tired to join them. I was so into studying Economics okay. I mean like, more than the rest of the subjects. And it was whole lot to read, understand and memorize. It took me bout the whole night where Tiff and I to finish up. I slept bout 3 something and woke up bout 6.30am. Thanks to that, I made the most stupid mistake ever in my 20% essay. Okay, stop complaining! Stop thinking bout the exam already!

Anyway, had a great time with them though I was really sleepy. Besides, it will be my last time seeing Sze Chi. =)
Thanks guys.
But it won't be our last meeting.


Saturday

I started my mission. And I'd completed half of it.
1. Compile my notes and bind them.
--- 2/5 more subjects to go
2. Rearrange my computer folder.
--- Yup yup! It's hard work.
3. Clear my wardrobe.
--- One day lar.
4. 8 hours of sleep.
--- No questions asked.

Oh shoot, that's it! Sweat. Besides having lunch with my family.


Sunday

Went to Ts with my bro and sis. That was our first outing together. As in like, us siblings. I mean, my bro actually asked for it u know? It was so unexpected. We watched Narnia. I didn't know the movie was that kind. I nvr watch the first one so I wasn't sure of it. Turned out to be super nice. I love these types of movies, especially if there's elves, wizards, centaurs, dwarfs, trolls, tauren etc. I think I'm referring more to harry potter and lotr. Anyway, one of the best movies so far since it was my first after my finals.

Headed to Sushi King for lunch. And of course, arcade. My bro paid for it. That's what I hate about going out together. All the things we eat/play have to be multiplied by 3. It was so fun, though there were lots of kids there. I hate basketball now. I suck at it. Real suck. I couldn't even pass the first stage. Damn malu =( Some more I tried twice. We spent about 2 hours there! And it cost us about rm30 total. See? If there's only 1 of us, it would be only rm10.

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Lazy wanna write already. Will continue in my next post.

Never

I will not let her stop me from going.
Not now,
Not yet...

I Did it Again

I was placed at the back of the hall, and there was I, struggling over my first paper, which was the subject of hell, English.
I was barely knowing what was I doin the whole time, and I didn't have enough time to finish the whole paper.

I screwed up badly. Even my friends were asking me why did I choose that essay question? I don't know!!! Wtf? I knew the answer for the other one but I wasn't exactly sure. But what the heck? The one that I'd done now was even worse but I couldn't turn back as time was running out. So I just stick with what I'd started.
Now kinda think of it, my whole essay was totally out of topic. Get it?? Even the intro where I made my stand and wrote the thesis statement was out!!!

I'm so gonna fail this section. 20 marks gone..
I don't even wanna put any hope on it already.

That was for section C.


I did section B first, which was the comprehension part. I was supposed to limit my time to do that section at most 1 hour 5 mins. I ended up doin that for like 1 hour and 20 mins..
The compehension paper was about dreams.. Kinda interesting, but the opinion question was really tough...
And the note-taking was bad. I wasn't sure about the answer at all!

The topic was 'what dreams are made of..'
Sounds familiar? It's from Hillary Duff.. =)
Another 20 marks gone.


Lastly, Section A. A 10mark essay.

The teacher made an announcement, 'You have another 10 mins '.
Wtf??? I haven't even read the stimulus letter given, which was an issue on appropriate age of having children.
I just wrote crap. I didn't put examples as I was supposed to, I didn't even read the letters properly, I don't think I refuted correctly.

Even the Indonesian girl next to me, was asking me.. what did u do for ur section C? She saw me having a hard time over there. T_______T

It's not like I wasn't prepared. It was because I wasn't ready to face English yet.


All in all, I know I'll be failing the paper. So once I fail, I wont be able to go to the uni I want.
I walked around the college while waiting for my other friends to leave, and lastly I walked over to my usual hidden area of the college..
And sat there..
like how I did last time..
And I was doing it again..

I had used the word fuck too many times already till I don't even feel like saying out anymore...

I tried calling, but 1 was busy working... another was still having school..

and lastly, I called her...

He. Is. Watching. Me.

I'm always being watched,
By Him,
By God. =)

He is actually similar to Santa!
See?

He's making a list
And checking it twice
Gonna find out Who's naughty and nice
Santa Claus is coming to town

He sees you when you're sleeping
He knows when you're awake
He knows if you've been bad or good
So be good for goodness sake!

God had witnessed my act.

I was suppose to make the move to study every night.. but not yesterday. I ended up chatting about the buying a football jersey instead. I'm running out of time already!

That morning, I saw this man and his wife. They were carrying this huge luggages and was using the escalator. Then the elevator stopped. Just like that.
He fell off from the escalator and a cleaner came rushing to him. I stood there for a minute or two to watch them, and just freaking walked away.

Now there is this statement which stated,
Anyone who does wrong will be repaid for his wrong.

And I'm all in favor with the statement above.

I went to KFC for dinner with determination to try out the new chicken rice. The moment my foot entered the doorstep of the restaurant, they played the song 'No One' by Alicia Keys. Of all selections and they had to choose that song? Then I headed toward the counter to place my order, and I kinda forgot, we have to use our HANDS in order to eat their chickens! It felt kinda awkward so I asked for a plastic fork and spoon instead. There was a group of college students seated near me. They made me feel even more lonely okay! Not to forget of the song...

Coincidence? I think not.

The next morning, I tried finding another alternative way to go to college by taking Metro Bus. I asked the conductor whether they stop by Pasar Seni station or not. He nodded after much hesitation, and apparently I believed him. The bus went around Kota Raya, Central Market, Petaling Street, but not Pasar Seni station! I was wtf***ing in my heart. Then, he made a turn to Bukit Bintang. I knew I'd missed the stop. So, I went down and took the monorail to Kl Central.

No, the story didnt end just there. I was so blur that time till I didn't realize I took the wrong train till i reached the last stop, which was at Titiwangsa. Sweat, it's like another end of the world and I can even go back home that time. But, I didn't.
I don't really care about me having to sit from Bukit Bintang to Titiwangsa and back to Kl Central again. The thing is, I gave the wrong info to a foreigner.. and we both experienced sitting the wrong train.

After I reached, I had to cross the road in order to take the bus from there. Just as I was about to cross using the zebra crossing, I fell!! omfg! I fell and I sprained my ankle! It hurts so bad!!

Usually in most movies/novels/fairy tales, when a girl and a guy go for a walk together, there's always a tendency to have a minor accident where the girl might have sprained her ankle or something and the guy would be the one treating her wound and carrying her to a safe spot.
Not in reality.

I had to hold a pillar to balance myself. Because of that, I missed the bus! Omfg? What is happening to me? When I finally finished massaging my throbbing foot, I waited at the bus stop. The bus came and thankfully, I was able to get a seat but the bus driver asked to change to another bus when we reach another stop. Wth is this?? I'd to stand the whole journey to go college, and it was rush hour that time. Can u even imagine that? After reaching, I'd to force myself to walk to college for 15mins as I didn't want to spend anymore on traveling.

I took about a total of 2 hours and 45 mins to reach college. Sucks rite?

See, the statement is true. I'd done something wrong, and I'd been paid for it.

Current Status

Stress Level : High
Depression Level : High
Optimistic Level : Low

STML Syndrome : Worsen

Overall Status :
1. Just above the border line.
2. 10% chance of surviving.

I just can't help laughing over my result. I took a glance at it, and just laughed.
I knew I wasn't ready for it and my result had officially proven it.
Now, all I gotta do is to wait for my forecast result which will eventually be sent to my house. Meaning, my parents will then know how much I suck for my overall internal marks.
The marks I'm getting now will be sent to apply for university.
How much worse can it get?

To motivate myself, (I even forgot the word 'motivation' exist till toopig told me. See, I'm getting crazy).
I have my friend to remind me the number of days left till my finals arrive.
I have my other friend to encourage me everyday to study.
The rest of it is up to myself.

Finals coming!

Finals coming, Finals coming!

Argghhh, I am beginning to feel the emotional tension atmosphere around me. Well, that was because of Heri, he told us this morning bout the exam date which is approaching super fast. Yes, blame Heri for not reminding me earlier! Haha, I just feel better passing the burden to him instead of me having to make up an excuse for not studying.

But, I'm just gonna say it.
It's due to all the distractions at my house!
The Computer, Tv, Bed, Radio, Couch, Toilet, Piano, and so on..
All these are the basic necessity for me to call home.
Well, not to forget, my parents and my siblings of course.

Besides that, one of my main attributes (most common among all) is this so called laziness. I just got nothing better to do but to find something to do with the computer. To have at least a one week break of studying, I ended up changing my blog layout? Okay, I'd seen the 2 of their blogs.. and it looked super cool. Haha, that was the reason of me changing it.

It looks good isn't it? Haha, i'm feeling perasan.
Well, some people (not mentioning the name) said it was ugly. He didn't mean it that way. But in an indirect manner, that's what he think!
He's not the only one, I just found out, my first dear doesn't like it too! Nooo! She hates flower. T.T
For me? It still looks a lil to emo still.

On the other hand, one of them even changed his blog title because he got inspired by me! Haha, so, who's the big guy? That's me!

Ps : Im sure you know who you are.

Okay, even without having streamyx for like 2 days (something which i dunno why). I was still able live without it with having to play around with Photoshop. Haha, it took a day for me to at least learn some of the stuffs there. And thanks to my elder sister, she helped out too.

I just love photoshop. How can anyone not love it?
For ur info, the blog title was created by this magnificent programme. Lol, whatever I'm crapping.

Okay, what else? I'm getting fast at Freecell. Lol, yeah.. it's a card game. I used to be dumb at it. But not anymore. Haha, this definitely shows where my precious time has gone.

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When I was in form 3, I started signing up friendster and Msn. Those were the days where I used chat online a lot. But ever since Maple came into my life, I stopped. That's how I sort of lost some of my friends. But lucky for me, I restored myself during the holidays. And, one of my long lost friend came back!

Haha, I didn't know he was my first Pg friend till he told me that I was his first KL friend. And I thought of it, yeah.. he was my first friend from Pg!. I rmb we used to chat online a lot and always updating our lives when he came back from India for holiday. That's when we gotten close. Just that night, we were emo-ing when we talked about our past.. it was so funny, and the thing is..he can even rmb the Rikku pic I first put in friendster. Then, he sent a testi saying that my pic was really cute. And that happened 4 years ago.

I miss the time spent with him at night. We used to bet on our Pmr and Spm result, played prank on Ee Lin, all the on-going goodbyes at night, and especially on Final Fantasy.. We both played Final Fantasy X-2 and he got all those walk through. =.=ll making me lose in terms of percentage. Hehe..

Now, things had changed. But, it didn't change that much. We were still able to keep in touch. And we are going to. So I'm back to my original self like he had said!

xRikuzx & xRikkuzx

Freedom!

After 2 days of suffering, I finally got the chance to have my own personal freedom! I just wanted to enjoy that day to the max! Yes, I'm talking bout the outing to Pyramid with my dear dear yesterday.
Hahaha, since she had wrote about it in her blog, so I guess I just wanna add up from my own point of view.

Like she had written, the first place we went was the cinema area. Someone wanted to watch Tattooist at first, but it was really late so we ended up with Iron man. Just before, I said to my friend that Iron Man is juz a man with an artificial heart and with those machines, equips whatever. It turned out to be much more than that. The movie was actually great! So Shaq, I take back my words. Like u said, the movie was d bomb!

Had our lunch earlier at Jco donuts. It reminded me about the time me, Lin, Jin and Ann went there last time. If it wasn't for the dirty tables, we could have sat at the very same spot like we had instead.

For dinner, we went to Sakae Sushi. It wasn't as expensive as I thought. It again reminded me about the time Tiff and I went dating there. I intro my favourite ebi something (fried scallop) and their chawanmushi( thanks to my sis) to my dear dear.

Last time I used to talk a lot about Maple. But I think I found something even better. Arcade!~

We went to the arcade centre before and after the movie as well as after our dinner. It's like a necessity for me to have at least one game each time I pass by. Haha, I think I got influenced ever since Tiff taught me house of dead 4. Ever since that one time, I made up my mind to practice shooting, both time crisis and house of dead. Oh yay, I got my dear dear on my side now. Thank you! At least I got a shooting partner now. I've been looking for one.

Okay, I might be showing off.. but I really wanna post it in here to show how I became better. I learned to be so perasan myself because of him. I was playing time crisis with my dear and after she had finished, a Malay guy came up and joined next to me. Huhu~ He died before I did. I was like...*can't help grinning*

Then there was 2 Chinese guys, and 1 of them joined me too. We passed first stage and went on to the second stage. He died. *grin even wider*. That Malay guy continued for him. He died once again. Before me! Hahahaha~ My dear said they got that unsatisfied look in their face for losing to a girl.

It made me even more perasan now, and it made me feel good. =) Suddenly I feel like playing with my kor. He's really good at it. It has been some time since we last saw each other.

Oh yeah, we played Panic Attack! It was funnnn...

We camwhored in the toilet. It felt really weird.

We went back home about 8+ and the bus juz arrived the minute we reached the station.

I saw Alexis, the 2 koreans, and a girl from CIMP.

I found out that I rather spend money on arcade than on clothes.

We spent around rm55 each only. If I were to go shopping with my dear dear, we will surely spend more than that. So thank god Jin! I'm seriously running out of money.