I Did it Again

I was placed at the back of the hall, and there was I, struggling over my first paper, which was the subject of hell, English.
I was barely knowing what was I doin the whole time, and I didn't have enough time to finish the whole paper.

I screwed up badly. Even my friends were asking me why did I choose that essay question? I don't know!!! Wtf? I knew the answer for the other one but I wasn't exactly sure. But what the heck? The one that I'd done now was even worse but I couldn't turn back as time was running out. So I just stick with what I'd started.
Now kinda think of it, my whole essay was totally out of topic. Get it?? Even the intro where I made my stand and wrote the thesis statement was out!!!

I'm so gonna fail this section. 20 marks gone..
I don't even wanna put any hope on it already.

That was for section C.


I did section B first, which was the comprehension part. I was supposed to limit my time to do that section at most 1 hour 5 mins. I ended up doin that for like 1 hour and 20 mins..
The compehension paper was about dreams.. Kinda interesting, but the opinion question was really tough...
And the note-taking was bad. I wasn't sure about the answer at all!

The topic was 'what dreams are made of..'
Sounds familiar? It's from Hillary Duff.. =)
Another 20 marks gone.


Lastly, Section A. A 10mark essay.

The teacher made an announcement, 'You have another 10 mins '.
Wtf??? I haven't even read the stimulus letter given, which was an issue on appropriate age of having children.
I just wrote crap. I didn't put examples as I was supposed to, I didn't even read the letters properly, I don't think I refuted correctly.

Even the Indonesian girl next to me, was asking me.. what did u do for ur section C? She saw me having a hard time over there. T_______T

It's not like I wasn't prepared. It was because I wasn't ready to face English yet.


All in all, I know I'll be failing the paper. So once I fail, I wont be able to go to the uni I want.
I walked around the college while waiting for my other friends to leave, and lastly I walked over to my usual hidden area of the college..
And sat there..
like how I did last time..
And I was doing it again..

I had used the word fuck too many times already till I don't even feel like saying out anymore...

I tried calling, but 1 was busy working... another was still having school..

and lastly, I called her...