No longer Shitty

NOTE: Don’t bother reading if it is too boring or too long for you. I just want to get everything off my chest.

Believe it or not, I’m starting to love my job.

It isn’t that shitty as I first thought it was. True, I started off being blur about the whole thing but I’m getting used to it already. So, I guess... it’s turning out great! On the first two days, I said I wanted to quit to everyone who asked about my condition. But now, I don’t want to.

And it has been proven. My friend who came from the same agency as I am will be terminated in a few days time even though his contract is due in September. I don’t get it. None of us do. Why is he the one going away when I was the last to enter the company? Seriously, it should have been me. Rightfully, I am the one who is supposed to go instead of him.

I do feel sorry for him, but I’m kinda glad it wasn’t me.
Okay, I’m being evil.

My 3 friends will be leaving soon. All 3 of them are the ones whom I’ve clicked with since the beginning. And now they are leaving. What am I going to do? I somehow don’t really fit in with the permanent staff. We can talk about anything about work but it’s not the same if it goes to something not work related.


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The thing is, my manager decides who and when each person lunch break is. Being in customer service, not everyone can go for break at the same time. Sometimes, we have to go alone. Like today, she asked me to go out earlier. She insisted on me having my break no matter what time it is. I didn’t really want to go but I had to. So she changed my time to go with Teow today.

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I was the ;'proooooo' worker in my previous place. Hahaha! Most of my ex colleagues used to come to me to ask for help. Not to boast, but I like that kind of feeling, to know more than the others and to teach the juniors. Now, on the other hand… I have to ask my seniors how to do this lar, do that lar. I feel so dumb.

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Well, I did a lot of mistakes over there. I already owe my manager a Secret Recipe cheesecake and Starbucks ice blended mocha after 5 days of working.

I said I broke the water dispenser’s lever right? Not only that, I broke the file ring, jammed the photocopy machine and the chequework. Such luck I’m having.

If that is not embarrassing, the one happened in the afternoon was the most embarrassing moment in my entire life. It’s so much worse than falling in front of everyone or kena scolded in public. I was walking to Siti to ask for the tag, and suddenly a customer called me to come to where she was sitting. She whispered something to my ear, and I was like… OMG!!! I almost dropped dead okay? I don’t know whether the rest notice or not or maybe they were just pretending that they didn’t notice.

All I know is, the

GUARD SAW EVERYTHING!

I don’t know who to kill now. Him or me.

What fuck, he was staring and smiling at me the whole time after that incident. My manager asked, “What did the customer said to you just now?”
Lol. What was I supposed to say? Thank god she didn’t stress on that matter when I replied that it was something personal.

***

I like the people in my office. Not only from my department, but also when the time I photocopy some specimens. Most of the people know me, as I am always with the photocopy machine. They may not know my name, but they will always know me as the girl with the photocopy machine. Sweat.

Every morning there will be someone calling,
“Yen-Yen, Photostat again ar?”

Well, that will never happen again because I’m done with them!

I like the people on the second floor also. They’re extremely funny and friendly. I think I prefer working on that level than getting stuck downstairs. I laughed like hell today when I went up all the way just to get cello tape, rubber bands and bullets from don’t know who. All I know is that, I really made a fool out of myself in front of them.

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Someone guessed that I am persistent and very steady. Lol. He really doesn’t know me at all. My sifu said that that person should come down to see me work, especially when I get panic. My sifu knows best. He will always, “Aiyohhhhh” to me.

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• I don’t want to go back with him alone. I always find myself not having the mood to talk after work, let alone for about 20mins.

• I don’t want the clothes that she is planning to give me.

• I like the man at the coffee shop cashier. He recognizes me already. =D
  

• I can’t seem to change my size of writing. They keep getting smaller and smaller.

• I hate to admit but, I get really scared when I go to the pantry during lunch hours.

Sex and the City

If you are into pleasant, easy going movies and nothing heat pounding, terrifying or anything, I will have to recommend this movie.


I never blog on any of my outing with my animals since I know they will be blogging about it anyway. I don't feel like repeating the same thing over and over again. But this time is different. My friend didn't mention about this minor part. =) So, i just add a little from here. Though it's not on our outing but, on the movie.

This is a movie about four best friends facing the next phase in their life. Nope, it's not all about sex. It's so much more than that. Friendship. Friends who stick up for you no matter what happens, friends who stand by you when you are in trouble, and even... how much friends mean the world to us.

I give this movie a 7.5.

When it comes to the actors and actresses, I was so excited! It is kinda rare for me to know so many actor and actresses in just one movie.

The main actress in the movie, Sarah Jessica Parker. She was one of the special guests in Project Runway 4.

Chris Noth from The Perfect Man

Kim Cattrall from Ice Princess

and lastly, Jennifer Hudson From Dreamgirls and American Idol!

Shitty work

My days have turned themselves from bad to a nightmare! Fuck!
Not only I agreed to sign the contract with Nova Scotia, I've also created my own future to face boredom everyday for the whole 2 months.

My interviewer said I got the job I wanted. Lol.
She doesn't know what I really want. I'd been called for an interview with the job that I want so much right after I agreed to work in that bank.

Talk about shitty work.

And that's what I'm doing right now. Guess what they made me do?
Photocopy specimens, inserting bank drafts into separate letters, copy debit notes, credit notes, cheques, filing, running two floors up to get some documents from the seniors and so on.
What fuck.

I didn't prepare myself for this, a typical office girl.

I want to log orders, reply customers' enquires through mails and call customers to inform them on anything.

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We haven't have enough place to fit all of us in the reception. Some of the new temp staff, including myself have to make do with the hidden room behind the wall. The room is narrow and stuffy and hot!

I want Superdome back! Sobz.

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We don't exactly have a desk with a computer for ourselves. Sometimes we have to either share or we take turns and stuff like that. It's annoying!

I want my own computer. I used to have stickers to decorate my own computer. When I'm free, I online, chat, and play maggiemarket. It'll never be the same again.

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The pantry only has a make-your-own milo kinda thing. Here we have to use our own mugs to fill in the drinks.

I want my previous pantry. We have a drinking machine where we can click on different type of drinks. I love their Milo. I love their free nasi lemak or currypuffs in the morning. I love going for morning break with my friend and talk crap.

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I broke the water dispenser's lever today. They have been using for years and years already. A second after I pulled the lever, part of it came off and it flew! Lol. Now we have to go to the other level. Fuck. All because of me.




So I came up with a new resolution for today :

Everyday is a new day. Throw my memories of my past working experience into the bin and appreciate with what I'm doing right now!

Voice of Nature

I received a call from this person last night. I didn't know who was it as the numbers displayed on my phone were alien to me.
I picked it up, and I was like .... Ohh! Okay.. *with a blur look*

I'm writing on this because this particular person said something..

Unknown : "Eh, I didn't know your voice is like that leh. I thought it was your mom"
Me: "My voice very old meh now?!?!". *I was about to throw a dagger at him*
Unknown: "No lar.. very matureeeeeee"

Someone actually commented on my voice. Kinda think of it, it's kinda funny. It does bring back old times..



We didn't start the conversation on that straightaway. He was advising me on something tat's gotta do with tomorrow. Well, he really helped me a lot since I didn't really tell anyone about it.
So erm..to this person. Thanks. =)

You, Unknown.

When I was working at HP last year, I had to call a few customers to inform them about the change for their LCD screens due to overwhelming response and all.

And you know what this customer told me?
Cust1 : "You know, your voice sound very nice and sweet. I'm telling you, I really like your voice".

I was about to burst into laughter when he said that. And the way he said it. It's hilarious I tell you. Hahaha!

Cust2 : "Are you a temporary staff? Should be about 16 yrs old rite?"


Conclusion, I sound young okay. Not old, like u said. Lol.

2 'hot'coming events of the year!

Okay okay, here's the thing. I'm sure u all heard in the media, it's two of the upcoming events of the year!
First thing's first.

Chris Daughtry.
Omg. The Chris Daughtry.
Cut that. The Only Chris Daughtry...


Is coming to KL and no doubt, Sony Ericsson Street Party will be one ultimate happening event of the whole wide world! Well, just Malaysia. Or KL. Or maybe just the me. Shuts!

I really really wanna go.
Count your blessings people.
I mean, what is the chance of The Only Chris Daughtry to come here.

Here!

That's why they call it once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.

Come on, instead of having to just drool over him in front of the TV during American Idol, we will be able to see him live!


The best part is, this party is hosted by Hitzfm.
Oh God.
Imagine, JJ and Rudy will be there. Not to forget Adam C.
Hah!
If that can go any better.

So, the problem is.... Yes. There's always a 'but' in everything.

The In-party will be held in One U. That sucks.
Why must they host it in One U all the time?

Marie Digby for instance. U know how the hell I wanted to go last time?
But she came during weekday, and I was having my test at that moment.

Even if I cannnn go, there is no way I can come home from One U. It's like the other end of the world.
As a big supporter of public transport, I won't be able to make it on time to take the bus, train, and car in the middle of the night.

Yup. The other thing is, I don't have the tickets. Lol. I entered the online contest even though I know I don't stand a chance. But still, it's worth a try. Now I'm just waiting for the on-air tickets.
For more info, click here.

See?
Me getting excited over something which I can't go.
6 more days to go.
Haha.

Cut it.


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Next up,

The date of the concert was published in the newspaper yesterday.
Even if I can't make it for Chris Daughtry, I must must must must must must go for Avril Lavigne's concert.

I don't care.

It's a must.
Yes.

I plan to go for the middle seat. If worse come to worse, I just go for the RM168 seat. No big deal. So long I can go. Ahem ahem, I plan to use my own future hard earn money.

I love Avril Lavigne soooo much.

I once said to my friends that I will only go for certain concerts ::
1. Backstreet Boys
2. Avril Lavigne
3. Chris Daughtry
4. Nickelback
5. Leona Lewis. *New*

Imagine me going to Sean Kingston's concert. I only know a few songs. 4 to be exact.
What can I do over there?

Shout what ar???

Now I need to find a partner. The thing is, I don't know whether my friends want to go or not.
I guess I can work out the transportation...come up with a plan or something.
At least it isn't that far.
Fore more details of the concert, click here.

Anyone interested? =)
Msg me.


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Ps: Enjoy studying over there R!kuzz. Hopefully we can still keep in touch.

You are the Music in Me

Although I'm not that into facebook, but sometimes I do log in to check up some stuff once in a while. There was a friend request and to my surprise, that person was my ex-piano teacher! Omfg..! She started playing it just recently. There are hardly any people from this age group who use facebook and msn. She's so sporting. Haha!


It was back to those days when she used to come to my house to teach me piano until the day I took my final piano exam. I started playing piano when I was 11 yrs old. Even though it was kinda late, but at least I was still able to learn it and I'm really glad I did too.

Back then, I was more of a shy, naive little girl than I am now. I was the nerd in school and always got bullied by my own schoolmates.

• I used to being chased by this boy and his gang all over the school.

• I once took rm20+ from my dad's drawer because she threatened not to give me back my sailormoon stickers collection.

• I was always feeling lonely as most of my classmates ignored me.

• I had to hide myself at one place during break because I was always being followed. It was extremely annoying.

• I had to pretend like I didn't care when these 3 people did something unexpected in front of me.

But things changed when I turned 12. I started to get closer to my own friends. Believe it or not, those people who bullied me became my close friends. So many things had happened when I was in primary school. I don't know why I can even rmb it still.

So so, she saw through the quiet side of me and she molded me into loving music after some time. We did exchange music sheets occasionally; hers was the Chinese songs while mine was the anime songs. She is always the one who strikes up conversation to keep me talking. Other than that, she used to encourage me a lot before exams, especially when I became the first candidate. Not to forget when we did during oral practice. ^^ My sister and I also went to her house once for a small party with her other students. It was great.

I didn't know she placed a great impact on me until the day I told my interviewer (IELTS). Of all people, I immediately thought of my piano teacher.

To think that I actually dread going for her classes each time. I'll never have that chance anymore. No matter how much I hate those songs, I still had to practice to play them in front of her. Now, I rarely finish the whole song and the piano has not been touched by me for a long long time.

She gave me the whole collection of FFVIII original music sheets to me last time but I lost the book.

T____________T

I used to be so crazy of final fantasy, thanks to yiingku's friend. In fact, FFVIII is the first game that I played when my dad bought me a ps.
The song now in my blog is my favourite, not this version though. It's a song that I find truly touching and the only song that I'd memorized.

I tried memorizing others, but I just can't seem to do it. I played this song in front of some of my college friends before, 2 of them could feel the song, and they knew that I like it a lot.
I guess I only set my feelings on this.

Yet, again...

Last night I tried.
And it will be my very last time.

How many times have I repeated that I wonder?
Having me to actually pluck up my courage to take the initiative to make the first move, really made me destroyed everything. once more.

It didn't really make any difference anyway. No, actually it kinda did.
I know now that that's what things are, and it will always remain the same no matter how long u give that person the chance.

I just ruined the silly pride of mine.again.
Fuck. I don't care.

I always find this entertaining. =) It can heal anything!
Yes, it's a video that I'd shown u guys before.
But I really love it..!! It's one hell of a funny video.

HeLPppppppppppppppp

Haven't been blogging much these days. I guess I have nothing more to say about my life. Well, technically I've been spending my entire days :-

• rotting at home, (online, reading, watching tv etc)
  
• hanging out with certain friends (most them are too busy to accompany me these days though),
• searching for a job online

I finished writing my resume just last night and I found out that I've nothing to write about! I thought of posting it here, but then... T___T that will be too embarrassing. Hope by next week someone would at least give me a call for a interview or something. The jobs that I have applied for are mostly administrative work and telemarketing.

I'm hoping to get this job, but I know it's kinda impossible. There are 630 applicants who receive higher education than me.


If things don't work out the way I wanted, I think I just have to settle in as a salesgirl. Since it's already mega sale, they may be running out of workers. ^^


I thought of ice cream shop. My friend immediately said Nooooooo.
Why ar?

I think it's cute. =)

I wanna work at Pyramid but my mom said too far. Haih.

Maybe I shouldn't work in the office anymore.
Maybe I should try out something different instead of the same thing that I used to. What do u think?


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I can still rmb vividly when I was working at HP for 3 months, A week after SPM and a few days before my NS starts. I really worked my ass off okay and it's worth it, especially after seeing my cheque. XD

I know the agency was cheating coz based on the OTs and public holidays that I've worked for, I should have received much more than that. But somehow, I don't really care about the money.
Okay I do care, but not to that extent.
My mom will definitely kill me if she ever finds out about this.


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Anyway,
I love sales.
I love seeing big coloured signs with 30%, 50%, and 60% pasted on the mirrors of every shop.

I'm seriously broke now.
I need money.

HeLPppppppppppppppp....!!!!

Thoughts of the Day

Boring post ahead.

This is to inform you that I will be taking a break from studying till the beginning of year 2009. In fact, I'll be giving my brain the rest it needs for another 8 months.

Pretty cool right?
No it's not.


I hate the fact that I'll end up graduating later than the rest of my friends, well.. most of them.

Just as I thought I'll be able to catch up with them by taking up diploma course that I was offered in Melbourne, I rejected it the very next day due to the high requirement that is needed to make it to the second year degree. An average of distinction for all subjects. Omg.


My friends are having the chance to taste the life of studying in university today.
Hopefully we can keep in touch still, considering their life would be filled with assignments after assignments from now on.


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I'm glad that I don't have the kind of pressure where one can actually die from having depression for doing badly in IELTS. At least I now have a few other options to choose even if I fail. Lol.
The morning before my speaking test, I got a call from IDP saying that I have an offer from Adelaide. Unfortunately, my enrollment date is on the 13th July, which is today. (-_-)''

Writing test.
The 1st section had a line graph and a table with it. We have to summarize them into an essay.
The 2nd section. The question went something like this.

"Some support the development of agriculture such as botanic farming and scientific creation of new types of fruit and vegetables. Some don't agree."
Give your views.

My jaw just dropped.

OMFG, what the hell was that? I've never written such essay in my life. Ever.


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I don't know why but those who have the chance to study abroad aren't as excited relative to those who don't have that same opportunity, for some certain complications. Maybe we're taking things for granted.

To this person, though I know he doesn't read this blog.
I hated the fact that u said my family is rich. U of all people don't have the right to say so okay. U don't know how hard my parents have worked to keep up with our school fees whatsoever and to cope with the high rate of inflation now. They just want us to have the chance to experience something different that they couldn't have last time.

It's not that I have asked for it.

Just so he knows,

• I live in a terrace house situated in a village area.

• Our computer is always giving problems but my father would spend hours and hours trying to fix it rather than to send it to a workshop.

• Our house roof keeps on leaking whenever it rains even though it had been fixed several times.

• Our car is getting old, ready to break down anytime.

• My piano has been living with us for 19 years now.

• And, I own a really old nokia handphone. I don't even know what model is it.
  

But so what?
I'm contented with my life now.
I don't need anything more.

4 Days at SS15

Advice.

What's the plural form for it?

Omg, the stupid me actually came up with this word.

Advices.

Is there such word?

I repeated that word over and over again for approximately 15mins. I knew something was wrong, but I didn't have the time to think what my mistake was.
She stared at me like I was a stupid fool and she yawned right in front of me!
Her mouth became wideeeeeee which could even form an 'O'

Stupid me.

She had questions like..

Part I
Where do you live?
What type of clothes do you usually wear?
Do you think colours represent ourselves?

Part II
"What kind of situation gives you good advice."
Okay, something like that. I can't recall.
So, I had to talk for about 2 mins. I don't think I even exceed 1min.

Do you still keep in touch with that person?
Will u ask advice from your friends or your family more?

Part III
Who is the most suitable to give advice on careers and jobs?
What kind of info that we need?
Will you follow their advice or your own?

And so on.

Based on how I had answered, I think she will mark me a 5. Either a 5 or below.
I know these questions are kinda easy, but I was practically shaking throughout the entire task. Those who know me will know how nervous I can get.

nervous + bodoh

Lastly, I think I talked too fast. Lol. I don't know whether she understands a word of what I was trying to say.

I is stoopid.

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I attended the last workshop today. Now that I think of it, I will really miss the class. Something which I don't know why. And there's this girl.
Lol, yeah... a girl. She's really attractive. (O_o)''? but she's so fake. Too fake. That is just my first impression of her though. I don't know her.

There's this Malay girl, she once sat next to me and she copied my notes without permission! Why did she make it so obvious?! Not only that, when she opened her folder to take out her notes, she bloody hell overlapped her folder where my notes were.

Then there's this person. I don't know what I did, but after a few minutes of talk, he suddenly asked for my email. This is so weird.

And this guy, I noticed that he's really cute. Lol. But I never have the chance to talk to him.

A lot of them are doing Phd and masters. And me? Planning for a degree. Why must they be so smart? T____T

One more thing, I was walking to the bus stop when I saw one of the people from my workshop, walking towards his car. So we both said hi. Okay fine. This evening, once again I walked behind him slowly, but he walked even slower. He saw me and he said "Hi! How are you?". He then offered to send me to the bus stop... but I decline. Lol.

Wasted.

And you know why?

He looks a lot of my Rami!!!! Omg, so wasted!!! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. His shades made him look even more good looking. Hahahaha. I was so happy when he greeted me. So handsomeeeee......
My MAN...!!!!

So handsomeeee....

Ps: I saw someone like this in the train as well. He's sort of bald. What's with me and these kind of people?

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Anyway, I went to the bus stop that day after my workshop. I saw a couple, or maybe they are just friends. They reminded me of this show, 'A Walk to Remember'.

The guy was kinda hip and punk kind. The girl however, wore a really big white plain tshirt, and a pair of jeans. She carried a school bag while holding a file and her hair was tied loose with a big white rubber band. She looked so sweet and conservative, in a good way lar. I really like the 2 of them the minute I saw them, but more of the girl. They're the perfect couple.

I love this movie a lot. A+++++

She looks exactly like her.

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This evening, a guy came up to me in the bus stop.. asking me something in chinese! I really dunno what the hell he was talking but I heard the word 'kelana jaya' and 'T623'. Lol. I nodded my head and said this, "ahh" as a sign of agreement. That is how I act pro, I acted like I know mandarin when I don't.

So I kept cool, till I saw a bus heading to our way. I was pointing to him, notifying that that was the bus, I got up from my seat and almost wanna flag the bus but it wasn't the bus.

Omg.
So malu.

Then he asked me something. I just "ahh" once more. Lol.

A girl after that came up to me and asked me,

"Has the bus, T623 arrived yet?"

I was like... woah.

I replied, "Nope, I'm actually waiting for the bus as well".

See the BIG difference?

Instead of just "Ahh", I was able to at least answer her in a sentence.

This is my Now

Guess what?
Now
is the time
for....

SHOPPING!!!!!!

I love this time of the year!

Searching for a shopping partner...! Anyone interested just give me a call.

I wish Santa can do the shopping instead of me. XD

Economics

This piece is taken from The Star, dated 4 July 2008.

It's so economi-sh.
Those with economics background would understand this.
But then,
Like I said earlier,
I'm stupid.
Lol.

B-A-N-A-N-A

Gonna be very busy for another week, again. Study study..
And the day I hoped for will come to an end.
Very soon..


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I told them something today.
The one question that came through her mouth was,
"You're a Banana right?"

Yes. I am a big, fat banana with a Capital B.

It's not like I got the same reason as them, in fact... I should be the one doing better.
This is so embarrassing. I'm a BANANA, and a stupid one too...



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Never ever judge a person based on their look as it can be deceiving.
I encountered them numerous times already, especially when I started going to school by public bus.

Even if that person is

An old man

Or...

An office staff
(Note : Josh Duhamel from Las Vegas. My man!)

Or even

This..

Not to forget, foreign workers and secondary school guys.
Sucks.
I hate them.

What's next?

I've been such a bitch lately, forgive me for what I'd done.

Currently working on some solutions, hopefully I will not repeat the same mistake again.

I just need more time to get over it.

It's the 6th day now.

Although part of me had given up, but after seeing them... after observing the way they are handling the matter, I felt a lot better.

I just don't get it, why didn't they blame me? I would prefer them if they did. Instead, they are the ones who are doing my homework. Cleaning up my mess.

She asked me a question that day.

"Are you sad?"

How am I supposed to answer that?

I know I acted like I don't care.

What can I do? Tear up in front of them?

Stupid idea.

Imagine being abandoned, being left alone when the rest have their chance to go on.