All Aboard?

In less than 48 hours time I'll be on the plane to somewhere out of nowhere, leaving my home. Do you have any idea how DEPRESSING that sounds whenever I think of leaving the people behind me here? I've been waiting for more than 6 months already and still I'm saying that I'm not ready? What the hell. Whole 6 months. About half a year. Whole 24 weeks. 168 days. No, I'm not going into hours and minutes or I'll never stop counting.

Let's see, what have I been doing for the past few months besides not fully utilizing my precious brain? I had at least 4 months of working experience, about a month away for holiday, and the rest of the days... just stuck at home lazing around accomplishing none of my tasks. No wait, I have not even written any resolutions for year 2009 yet. See! Not even one resolution!

For those back home, they will never understand cause it's not them who are staying away from home for about a year. Note that, about a year! Sobz! Life will still continue to go on even though when I'm not around. Imagine if I leave this world, what will happen then? Will anyone go for my memorial ceremony? Will anyone mourn for my death?

CHOI TAI KA LAI SI.

I'm not sure my chinese word is correct, but have u noticed?
Tai Ka Lai Si.

Everybody go shit. @.@

Sorry, I got a little carried away. As I was saying, people move on eventually whether you are indeed here or not. They will never understand, I had been in that kind of situation before. The first week in NS was H.E.L.L. I Tell You! I can't seem to remember how many times I had cried. Cried till I fell asleep, cried in the toilet, cried in front of my friends, cried when I called my parents. Nobody cared! Everybody was busy with their own lives.

I am about to experience that once more. But this time, with better spirit. Yes, this time for real, I am so gonna do it. I have the chance where not many others have so I am not gonna blow this last chance. It's always easier said than done right? It is time for me to walk the talk!

Sigh..
Sighhhh......

I'll be missing so many TV series. Desperate Housewives. One Tree Hill. American Idol. Gilmore Girls. Goddddddd... Did I mention One in a Million too?

Triple Sighhhhhh.................

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My luggages seem to get heavier and heavier each day. I used to have a lot of excess, but now.. I think what's left now is about 4 more kg. Oh oh, I'm bringing my dog, my pooh bear, my monkey and my frog along. So at least I have a few friends when I go to bed everyday since they are replacing my sister. Who knows, I may start talking to them. Omg, I don't want to be that one and lonely person who is too desperate but doesn't have anyone to talk to until is forced to talk to stuff toys. T_____T

I am also here to confess something.

I'm actually afraid of flying. Hahahahaha. Everytime when the captain announces that there is a turbulence, my heart will always be thumping like mad. Usually what I will do is, act cool and pretend that I'm not scared. My hands will get all sweaty and cold okay. Even if the flight attendants ask us to put on our seatbelts, I will always be thinking the worst that can possibly happen.

One more, before I stop writing, I am always afraid of sitting the cable car. You know the cable car where we go up to Genting? Yes, I am referring to that particular one. But, I will only be terrified if the cable car stops for some technical issues. Last time experience was horrible, I don't want to mention about it.

Okay, I am about to go to sleep now. I don't think I will be posting anything for quite some time from now on. So, guys... wish me luck!

Toodles!

*I have something for all the wrong reasons, but somehow... it's still hard not to let go...*