She asked me something very disturbing that day, in the car. I answered what I thought at that moment. Sadly, she got a similar reply from L too So, that's what he thinks as well? I've to admit, it is true considering we barely talk to each other as how we used to, thanks to my old habit which I can never seem to overcome. We used to understand each other without even having to actually open our mouth. He used to be a very good companion, someone I can really count on, and someone I can discuss my problems with.
Here am I, wishing things would go back like how it used to. Would I be happier then? Or, would I've even developed something more? That is the question which can never be answered anymore, seeing that I have already made my choice.
I rarely talk to G nowadays. I dunno, things just changed. He used to be so annoying last time. Who don't know that. But, he no longer as noisy as before, as that old him. He changed his target though, much to my relief. This time, he follows her everywhere. I dunno whether she can actually stand him or not. Haha.
I really felt guilty when I lied to him straight in the face saying that C and I were going out to join the rest for lunch. Well, not actually telling a lie, just playing around with him. I guessed he took it too seriously, he saw us coming back and pretended not to look and he took off. I explained to him and asked him to join us. He just nodded. We were kind of waiting for him after that, but he didn't turn up. C suddenly saw him eating alone. He took off once again when we both looked at him.
I'm so so sorry G, for doing that. Somehow, I pitied him, maybe coz he did not have a group for our assignment in the beginning.
I consider myself closest to W and C now. Although C and I talked more, but there is still something missing. As for W, I can tell him almost anything, but not on that. Imagine me telling him that I used to think like that? I wanted to answer him when he asked me that question, but I couldn't. I don't know why.
Maybe I am feeling embarrassed, or maybe I am afraid that he might know the other person as well, or maybe, I just don't want others to know about it. So far, he is the second person from my college whom I let view my blog. I guess it means that I trust him. He will always find me first, something that I really feel grateful for. It makes me feel like I am wanted. =) At least, he is the person I want to see first in the morning, well I have to. Hehe.
I prefer to see Q rather than L at that place. Luck is always by my side, I see Q more times than I see L. Obviously, I can talk to Q more. He is someone I feel really comfortable talking with. Although Q has lots of friends, but at least he does still return to his own friends, unlike L, who has unlimited friends to handle till he sometimes doesn't know which to go to.
Anyway, Q sometimes ask me whether I want to follow him or not. I love it!~ No doubt about that. It makes things much easier. Recently, he asked me something but I couldn't make it. I wanted to go for it but I've done it before. He's not the type who will bluff or trying to butter up people, but for once I seriously hope that was just his excuse. I doubt it was. I bet it was because I can get there easier than anyone else could. Much much easier. That's why.
K witnessed almost all of these already. He must have think I'm a slut. He still doesn't know about something though. Haha.
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