Have you ever wondered...

how life would be without contact lens?


I did.

For a girl like me, contact lens play a crucial role in my life.
Without it, I cannot survive. Literally.

This was me 8 years ago.

Spot me. I was the ugly duckling in my family.

If you think I'm ugly then don't see lar!


I thought of not putting this photo at first... but then I was thinking, why not? I can't change how I looked in the past. All I have to do is to accept who I was and move on.
I was the girl with glasses.
I was the girl with braces.
I was the girl with pimples.
I was the girl with umbrella hair. Mind you, my hair was hideously frizzy, curly, dry and not to mention... explosive? My mom couldn't stand my hair so she decided to chop off my hair one day. My precious hair!

I've outgrown my childhood look though.


Okay, so I did tell you a teeny little bit of my past. Now I'm gonna tell you what happened to me a few days ago.

I got the feeling my contact lens broke when I was working. My eyes became really really red and watery like the first few days of chicken itself inside the egg during incubation period. I couldn't stand the pain hence I took out my lens and threw it into the bin. Big mistake.


First incident
I had to squint my eyes when I stared in front of the computer to look at the cheque numbers as well as the address for the whole hour.

Second incident
My friend who appeared to be really 'kind' asked me to collect a document from my senior while he helped me with my work. I almost tripped when I reached the last of the stairs in front of that player. Though I couldn't see his reaction but all I knew that I was cursing myself damn many times. I went to my senior's table which was situated at the end of the office. She asked me to collect it from the printer.

Me : Where's the printer wor?
She : There.....*she pointed to the other end. somewhere I couldn't see*
Me : Oh, I very blind now lar...cannot see.
She : Hazizi, tolong dia cari.


Third incident
I was busy rummaging through some folders to find the correct envelope when a man came to me and said,
He : Apa awak sdg cari?
Me : Eh, eh.. tak tau lah.

After much confusion between the both of us, he picked up the folder right under my eyes.

He : Inikah?
Me : Erm erm... *Blur look* Oh ya. Betul.


Fourth Incident
It was still raining by the time I reached Chow Kit bus stop after work. Everyone was squeezing together under a tiny bus stop while waiting for the bus. I think you can sort of guess. The blind me trying to see the bus number.


Okay, it may not seemed as bad as it looked but if you were there, you'll definitely understand how stupid I felt that day.