The 'It' Jeans

Updated on Saturday.

“Yen-yen, why are you wearing jeans?”
“Adik, tak ada orang cakap ke awak pakai jeans?”
“That’s why I was wondering how come you are wearing jeans.”
“Eh, can wear jeans ar? Today is not Friday you know.”

Those are my few comments on my attire to work today. What’s wrong with the way I wear? It’s only a pair of jeans.

When people walked passed by me, they stared…
at my jeans.

I was trying so hard to avoid the second floor and the pantry, acting as if nothing happened. My sifu didn’t really care how I felt though, he sent me up to do filing so many times! Of all days man… he had to do this to me. I felt so awkward walking up alone, muttering to myself about how stupid I was.

I hate filing. Most of the folders are really heavy and you have to search like hell for some documents. I usually sweat quite a lot even though I have to do it in an air cond room. This happens after removing the boxes, finding the right keys for the right cabinet, and searching through folders after folders. Since then, I met a new friend…I’ve yet to find out his name.

Just when I was about to give the bunch of keys back to Steven, I caught Ms Khong Soo Ping staring at me like one kind! I saw her looking at my jeans but pretended that she didn’t see okay! I could tell she looked surprised. She’s like the one of the big boss for this company and if I were ever to be placed under her department, I’ll be so dead.

I couldn’t help looking back as I headed towards the staircase, and I regretted what I just saw.

*****

1st : Friendly
2nd : Sweet talker
3rd : Playboy
4th: Fake


That was my first impression on him. I wanted to tell the 5th one but I still have to see him everyday. So, I just have to bear with it as I don't want to make things awkward. Only desperate people will fall for that kind of tactics. Stupid ass hole. Come on lar, I'm not that naive and stupid okay.

Later at night,
I regretted saying those words. I hurt him I know. Once, my NS friends said I often have the tendency to hurt people’s feelings without knowing it. I didn’t realize I’ve such a sharp tongue, until last night. He had been really big about it, but I know I just stabbed him painfully to his chest because he did not reply me after soooo many hours.

I truly don’t know what I’ll do when I see him on Monday. I got the feeling that, instead of smiling, we will instead pretend not to look at each other. Shit, imagine my sifu or Teow ask him out.

Don’t you know, the more you don’t want to see a person, the more you will see him or her? It coincidently happened to me on Friday a few times.