Wtf Wtf! I'll never be ready...
This morning, I received a call from my mom. She told me something, something which I have never expected. My heart just dropped. To the floor! Wtf. I don't wanna leave that early. Seriously, I'm scared.
No, scratch that. I'm terrified.
Wtf. I am now in this moment of wishing that the clock would stop ticking, wishing that I could be in two places at one time. wishing that my heart would stop aching in pain. This kind of feeling is much more awful than the day my contract ended, or the time I had to leave everything behind for three freaking weeks. All the while I thought I was a cold blooded hard core bitch, but I just found out... I have feelings after all. Lol. these human feelings seem so alien to me.
The second that I feel my days are starting to look up, something just have to stand behind my way the next second. Why must they say when one goes up, mustttttt come down?
I really have to start making myself free for others before heading down to the airport and go aboard. The nearer my dateline is, the more plans have been laid out for me. So people, start booking me. ^^
I may not have as much time as before now.
And, I really need a hug from someone. :(
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This morning, I received a call from my mom. She told me something, something which I have never expected. My heart just dropped. To the floor! Wtf. I don't wanna leave that early. Seriously, I'm scared.
No, scratch that. I'm terrified.
Wtf. I am now in this moment of wishing that the clock would stop ticking, wishing that I could be in two places at one time. wishing that my heart would stop aching in pain. This kind of feeling is much more awful than the day my contract ended, or the time I had to leave everything behind for three freaking weeks. All the while I thought I was a cold blooded hard core bitch, but I just found out... I have feelings after all. Lol. these human feelings seem so alien to me.
The second that I feel my days are starting to look up, something just have to stand behind my way the next second. Why must they say when one goes up, mustttttt come down?
I really have to start making myself free for others before heading down to the airport and go aboard. The nearer my dateline is, the more plans have been laid out for me. So people, start booking me. ^^
I may not have as much time as before now.
And, I really need a hug from someone. :(
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