Words to Fill My Time

Something's weird is going on. For no obvious reason, my blog posts are getting lesser. Not only lesser, shorter as well. There were a few happenings that had happened recently, but I find it quite unnecessary to show it in public. In fact, I find each of my posts are turning into those boring, normal, typical complaint type of blog. If I can have one other wish besides the one I had wished for for my birthday, I wish I can put my thoughts into words for my blog the moment I thought of something. That could be dangerous though. Imagine the devil side of me take place. Feelings of anger, jealousy, revenge all jammed up together and put into writing. What would happen then? Or what if I keep telling myself that I'm hurt badly? Is it to gain sympathy? Or I just want it to be heard by others?

These days, I've been trying to write something, to just express it out. However, just as my finger tip touched the keyboard, I exited the whole thing. I'm becoming lazy, I know. I sort of read through some of my old posts recently, I think I did quite a good job. Lol, at least I do find it more entertaining than the ones now. More words and less pictures. But now? It totally changed. To the better? No, not at the very least.

I've been training my eyes to stare at the computer screen for hours now, alone. Who knows, I may have a company next to me now. If you know what I mean. I'm not afraid though. It's way past the ghost time. Haha! And it's practically turning dawn..so I'm not scared. Just tired. Yet, I don't feel like sleeping. All I know now is, I want to write something. Just something, even meaningless words, to fill up the space. See, even now... I don't know what I'm writing about, or thinking about.

Life is complicated if you think it that way.


So, why not just not think about it at all?


You think life is that simple? Just erase it off and everything will be gone?
What is there to think about anyway? What is it that keeps bugging me every time? I'm not in the same situation as my other friends, who are busy preparing for their exams. I don't have anything to worry. So, what is it? In case you're wondering, it's not about that okay, nothing to do with that. And this time, I mean it. Nothing happened, and never will.

Now, I'm in the mood of blogging once more. Yays! See, my mood changes easily.

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